I'm getting through it. I haven't cried yet but I did slam my fist into my desk and ripped open my pinky knuckle with her on the phone. You pour all your feelings into someone and you get stabbed in teh back like this? This is the most horrible pain ever besides having someone close to me die. I have never experienced anything like this and I don't ever want to. I can't believe this is happening to me and it feels like a really bad dream. I just wish I could go to sleep and make this go all away.